Does chronic masturbation make you happier?

BR  0.60136 - 2013 Sessions:  101

I don't know what I am doing with my life, but it seems that in my case all roads lead to Rome, or should I say bateworld.   I broke down and became a member yesterday after I saw how affordable it really is, like 7 bucks a month, so that's a cup of coffee a month.  So by now, if you read this blog, you know that I have this thing I call an addiction fetish.  What I am learning is that there are others out there that feel the same as me.  There is a lot on bateworld about getting yourself addicted, giving into it and enjoying porn and all the pleasure this can give me.  There is even a support group for it, to encourage you to do it more.  Start out asking do you masturbate once a day, no?  Then start doing it daily, and then increase the time, bathe yourself in porn and ramp up the desires to feed the addiction.  You then get yourself on a cycle, where the more your masturbate, the more porn you watch, which in turn makes you want to masturbate even more.  It's the whole quantity and quality thing--they go together.

I must admit, this is such a turn on for me!  It's related to the whole "be dumb" thing that I was recently attracted to, in that it's a release from control. In the addiction, your cock controls you, not you controlling your cock.  You surrender everything and make it part of your spiritual practice, that way there is no conflict-- I'm not making this up, its on one of the internal site blogs.  They seemed to know just the right thing to say to invite me to take this deeper, I am not shunning God, I am inviting Him into the practice that He created!  If I am not "sinning", then there is no reason in the world why prayer and masturbation cannot be put together in a way...or is this blasphemy?  I don't know, but I seem to think God can hear our prayers as long as we are of sound mind...

I also saw one post about how masturbation makes you happier.  Give in to porn and masturbate, allow the addiction to take hold.  Do it for a month and you will find that the deeper you go, the better it gets.  Are these just lies made up to make people like more horny as hell or is it true?  I mean that is the gold at the end of the rainbow, isn't it?  The addiction is the means to make it better, more fulfilling.  It all relates to the same idea--the loss of control is pleasurable.  Whether it is bladder control and you pee freely into a diaper, or self control and you edged for hours and your don't even realize you had...that kind of complete surrender of control, not caring about any other worry in the world, only focusing on your penis and the pleasure he gives you.

I know this is dangerous.  I've been here before, where I throw all caution to the wind and give in to it, enjoy it.  But the thing about addictions is there is always a price, no matter how much I want to make that price not exist.  Everyone has only so much time on this earth, 24 hours in a day, that is it... I can't do everything I want to do and be a chronically addicted masturbater to boot, as hot as that sounds for me.  I wonder what kind of lives the people on bateworld, and I mean the ones who are chronically addicted, masturbating 5,6,7 hours a day, what do they do?  They don't have time for relationships, to read books, to watch TV, exercise, everything that makes up a "healthy" person.  Getting that deeply into porn has a price--it does as much as I would not want that price to be there.

As I said, I've been here before, but what has changed is that now I am a member of this site and I wonder where all this will lead me, will I end up so totally addicted that I no longer attend church, do the things I love (other than masturbating).  I'm not sure, but for now I am allowing a little control to slip to see how far I can ride this wave.  After all, the more your masturbate, the happier you'll be!  To think all those years I fought against this, and now I am on the dark side.  Not only permitting it, but now actually encouraging myself to get myself a little addicted for the fun of it, why not, right?  We'll see, I will let you know how far I take this and if it's all worth it.  My parting thought, that I find so valid, is that I do need to make my practice my prayer life.  Pray and make thanksgiving to God when you bate, it is a gift that we all need to enjoy.