40 days of masturbation!

B.R. 0.7934

Ok!  I know its been yet another long interval of time since my last post, well over a month.  Again, my apologies.  I must say a lot has happened in the last month in terms of porn and masturbation.  I wanted to journal about it, but I got myself so caught up into it I could never pull myself away long enough to reflect.

One, I discovered Tumblr.  Yes, another blog, but I find this one more accessible for finding images and videos that prove exciting and stimulating, and also pretty much in line with my many kinks.  So that site was akin to adding the oil to the flame of my internal passions.

Two, I re-discovered my primary love of diapers.  Wearing them, getting off in them, fantasizing about loosing bladder control in them, and especially reading about others out there doing the same.  

Three, I have come to a point in my faith where I think masturbation really needs to be celebrated (not tolerated) and really brought into the idea of worship of God through the life experiences that exist, and for me that is the pleasure of gratification.

So I have devised a lenten challenge, I want to masturbate each day, but only cum on Sundays, so Monday-Saturday, I'm edging.  A session has to be a minimum of three minutes long.  They should be done at the close of the day after prayers and reading scripture. Again, the idea is is incorporating it into my spiritual life as something holy to do before the Lord and that He can enter into that with me.  Less focus on porn and more on the sensation, should not be hard since I am not climaxing.

That's basically it.  Oh, and another thing.  I got very, very close to getting a bate score of 1.0.  I got up to 0.9135 on February 8th, but sadly I backed off since the electric wave of Tumblr began to wear off and I got into my old pattern.  In any case, I am sure I will be able to get very close to that score again since I will be masturbating everyday starting this Wednesday.  I plan to cum Tuesday, the last day before lent starts.

I'll try to blog again about my progress, and if you read this, don't be afraid to drop me a line to A encourage me, B) Join the challenge!  or C) Just too say hi.