Settling In

So now another day has past and I am still excited about this blog. It's strange that I should be, but it is such a different medium than the old cursive hand I used in my paper journals. I feel so much more willing to jump right in an report on how I feel. It will take a lot of courage for me to share this to people I know. So far I have only told one person about this blog and to him I haven't even told him what to look under, he hasn't asked yet. I think I want to keep things that way for now. You see with a journal I like the complete freedom of expression to share my true thoughts. It would be too embarrassing to allow my friends and family to read this.

So for now the only person who will read these words is me. I am pretty sure no one else is reading this, there have been no comments made so far from any casual readers, then again it's only been a day since I set this up. Maybe in a week or a month I will have some feedback. It would be interesting and also rather scary what random people would think. But in a way sort of fun. My life being so transparent to perfect strangers.

So what am I up to now? Well I have the afternoon off from work which, I must say, is quite a relief for me. I had a late lunch and then watched the rest of of BBC mystery on Masterpiece Theater. Then I wasted about a half hour of sacred time vegging on the couch and flipping channels. TV has this way of sucking energy and life from you I find. So then I was determined to do something productive. So I tended to some of my plants and now I am sitting down to work. I have so much to do at home all the time, but I so seldom accomplish much. I have a strong work ethic and I find my lack of work at home one of the six problems I have. I am realizing with only some discipline can I actually implement my work targets and plans.

I hope to work on some financial stuff after I get off of here and then maybe some long term projects. My primary goal this weekend is to maybe go on a bike ride and to clean out my shed, which is badly needed. I also was able to buy two books from Amazon finally!! I think these books will really help me with working out my sexual/ relationship issues. One is on overcoming homosexuality and the other is on overcoming sexual addictions. Sadly, I think I have much to learn and gain from both of these books. That's it for now.
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