Doors of Hope Course

So far I have completed eight sessions or days of the Doors of Hope Course from Setting Captives free.com. This is basically my next step after reading the book on my journey to overcome homosexuality and addiction to pornography. I have now come to a point in this process where I need to reevaluate where I am and what my objectives are. My issues with the course it that in order for them to be successful they must take a very ridged hard line approach to not only homosexuality, which would be obvious, but also fetishes and masturbation. When I signed up for the course my objective was not to stop all masturbation for the rest of my life. I have tried that and it did not work, my body simply needs to release every now and then apart from any thoughts I may have. It is a natural process that I personally see no harm in.

The rub comes in with my mentor who seems to think I need to take a more aggressive approach. This may be easy for him to mandate from his position, but I am pretty sure he has no idea what he is really asking me to do. That is why I need to stop for a moment and really evaluate what I think is right and go from there. I know that the point of the course and more generally of being a Christian is surrender to Christ and die to self. I agree with this, but there still needs to be discernment as to whose version of God are we surrendering to. I am sure the Mormons would have a very strict code I would need to follow if I went to them with my issues, but am I going to blindly follow their advise without checking it against scripture? I don't think so. There are so many false teachers out there, it is really scary. Just because someone says they are a Christian no longer holds any weight with me, there are so many supposed Christians who do not follow the truth or they twist it making less or even more restrictive than what God intended.

This is the crossroads that I am at right now. To what extent do I listen to what my mentor says and what is really the destination of where I need to go. In order to do this I will need to go back to my old journals and really read up on what I learned about a year ago when I was seeing Dr. Lampton. I had thought I had come to a point of validation and security, but now my position is being undermined by the precepts of this course I am taking. Therefore, more study is needed.

It is much later in the evening now, and I would like to try to work on the next day's lesson. I am not finished with this discussion and I look forward to getting a clearer direction on where I need to go in my life.
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