My Review of the Devil Dog Road by Mr. Mo

I know it has been some time since my last entry in this blog and I have been wanting to wait to write until I could finish this book. I believe, if my memory serves me correctly, that I did touch on this in one of my past entries. The book is very crude and at times it is hard to read not only because it had so many grammatical errors, but also because it uses offensive language and explicit sexual descriptions. At times I was not sure if the book was helping me or further encouraging me to partake in carnal pleasures.

I have now finished the book and all in all I think I am pleased. The author was able to redeem himself, but not in the way I had expected. I kept thinking the book was going to be more practical in the actual steps one should take to overcome sexual addictions. There was one suggestion that he mentioned in how in order to overcome homosexual feelings the author would place a picture of a young man in a sexual pose on his bathroom sink so he could become desensitized to it. I am not sure if that would work, but I have to say it's an interesting idea. Other than that, I think the book really focuses on attitudes and the repetition of some core assertions, such as sin is unfaithfulness and that we ought to take a both/and rather than an either/or approach when it comes to masturbation.

I did rather enjoy his references to St. Thomas Aquinas' view on masturbation being a worse sin than even incest because it wastes God's seed. Well I disagree with that view and I understand that this is a predominately Roman Catholic teaching. We must remember that the Bible has no reference to masturbation as being a sin and the story of Onan is not a reference to masturbation, anyone who says so I think is misinterpreting the passage's context. I do agree, however, that it can be addictive and I see now why it can be self destructive. The book basically says that it a self centered act. It is taking a gift from God (which in this case is basically sex) and it breaking it into the core sensation only for the purpose of self-gratification. It is, by its nature, a selfish and sexually immature response to to our natural sexual urges.

I agree with this, but was really hoping to have more guidance as to what to do about it. The book does do this to some extent, however. There is an analogy of a traveler who takes the wrong map to a city he was visiting. Try as he might he could not find the right streets when using the wrong map. It is the same way with this behavior. It is not a matter of stopping it, that is not the point. We have to look deeper than that into why we need to in the first place. One act of masturbation, when taken alone, is not a big deal. It is the pattern of objectifying our sexuality into a irresponsible and immature way that is an issue. Sex is meant to be part of a bigger act of love with a partner, an act of intimacy and sharing of bodily fluids to create a new life. The irony of the Priapus cult is that they worshiped their cocks as the creator of life, while they never actually practiced a sexual act that would succeed in doing it! They are primarily gay. They worshiped the created not the creator, as the book has so aptly drove home.

I know now how evil these sex cults can be, I have seen yet more evidence that I believe God has given to me, indicating that in Old Testament times not only was there sexual intercourse as part of the Israelites and Canaanites worship of Baal, but so was infant sacrifice! This made me sick that in a way I have been engrossed in an offshoot of this when I was enthralled with the Priapus cult. I then also made the striking parallel that Christ was sacrificed too, except he had more pain and suffering and he was just as innocent as any babe that was killed. This from God's one and only son!

So where does this leave me? I think I have a better idea what I need to do. I have known it all along, but I think I needed to read it somewhere to reaffirm these truths. I need to change my focus and seek after finding fulfillment in reading the Scriptures more and allowing the Holy Spirit to enter into me and give me such life and security. I think I will start to slowly downsize my involvement in object worship with my fetishes, which has sprung up and flourished because I am not getting sexually fulfilled through a spouse. I don't think that throwing away anything or trying to go too extreme the other way will help matters any. There just needs to be a change in focus. When I have the physical desire to spill my seed, I will do so only as a means to bring relief. I do not think God's plan for my life is to jerk off as a nasty old man looking at porno. I don't want to be that. All sin is is unbelief; unbelief that God can handle my sexual urges, so I must put them into my own hands (literally).

God knows me inside and out. Psalm 139 beautifully depicts how God has always known me. He knows what I have done, how I have done it, and the ways I go about doing it. Surely, He can understand this struggle and offer me opportunities for help, healing and recovery. The first step is letting Him in an making it possible to change me.

I am regretful my position on this may mean I will lose some friends on line, as I have built up many that are very much addicted to their fetishes as I am. I hope that I can soon find other friends that will encourage me to stay on the path that I am on and not seek to pull me away. I know that my true friends will care about me and not only care about if I am in a fetish or not. My focus is not a worldly view. It is only God whom I serve and not created things. Created things are a gift, worship He who created them and gave them to us!
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