Update on Stuff

This won't be long, I have a lot I need to get to today, and the day is already half over!  I have not been doing the dumbing down files, but rather just trying to find everything on the internet about them and those who do, do them and seeing the effects on their diction.  This has kept me going for some days and in a sense I have been in a fog with this still, but I do have other things I am doing, social events, work, etc., that is breaking this up so I am not totally immersed.  I have seen some of the darker sides of Fet Life and it has been sobering, to say the least.  I am not sure how far I will ever go into some of these fetishes as they seem to be all consuming.

The upshot of all of this is my latest fixation on dumbing down, which has dominated my sexual life for the last two weeks (man I wish I kept my log still!!!  Why was I ever talked out of keeping this?) appears to be gradually fading away.  It (as with any fetish) is fueled my some sort of media, be it visual, writing, etc., and so when this media is exhausted, there is no more fuel for the fire.  This is a weird fetish, I don't need images, I need to see people's dumbing down, particularly if they were smart once and then became dumb.  The irony of all of this is when it work --truly works-- you will not hear from the subjects who dumbed down, they will no longer have the desire or ability to post on their progress and certainly will lack all capacity to reflect on it.  So I really can only see glimpses into people's lives as they are doing it, and then they fall off, never to be heard from again on line.  It is scary, but seems to be the only way to get any info. on it.

I know in the long run, that it will be better for me to run out of media to consume.  At some point I need to carry on with my life and do what I need to do.  If I won't take the plunge all the way, then there is no point looking longingly over that cliff, imagining I am jumping and watching those who have.